Assalamualaikum and Hye everyone
So, its been almost a year since I started my own Business Online (its @bysyuhadahengku in instagram :D). Tak pernah terlintas langsung difikiran that someday ill be in this field, walaupon masih secara kecil-kecilan for now (doakan its going well dan makin berkembang please) . I was always a buyer back then..heee so being a seller myself, never crosses my mind. I dont have many good friends, I am not good at communicating with people so doing business is definitely out of my comfort zone. But I guess when yore desperate we just gotta do it. And yes I planned but Allah's Plan is always the best.
Ada banyak sebab why I started this business online. Sebab utamanya bukan untuk ada pendapatan sendiri. Well, yes for someone who doesnt really know how to ask for money unless its super important, having my own money is quite helpful but on top of that I just wanted to get connected with other people, have something to do, have some achievement....
Okay macam dah jauh terpesong dari main topic je kan. Mari kembali ke pangkal jalan..hehe
Doing business online, my main medium untuk berjual beli ( Im a dropshipper) of course adalah Social Media which makes me have to be with the phone a lot. Tapi at the same time, dari mula Hanan lahir ive been trying to not use the phone bila ada dengan Hanan. But the thing is Hanan is with me like all the time. Bila Hanan tidur I was rushing to do the cooking so I end up curi-curi tengok fon. Penat tau updating and replying message customer curi-curi ni, I couldnt think properly and it makes my brain macam penat sangat...haha. I also notice that I couldnt really focus on Hanan bila main and talking to her. My mind macam spliting macamtu. Sambil main nak kena fikir message customer. I also end up using the fon lebih kerap waktu malam. dan makin lama I started to use the phone lebih kerap depan Hanan to update my post and reply all the messages. This makes me feel super bad. I've been trying to do a time table to manage my time playing with hanan and doing my business tapi its tough..huhuh...
Lately I havent been feeling quite well too. I easily get headache. My eyes, my head feels so tired but my body isnt. I couldnt focus on things that I do and I sort of have anxiety and I couldnt sleep well. Dan semua ni tentunya akan beri kesan pada Hanan. How can a tired, not feeling well and emosi tak stabil mom jaga, treat, communicate and play with her daughter well.
We have decided to send Hanan to pre school next year just to let her mix around with kids her age. So ada around sebulan macamtu je lagi I will be having her full-time. I really wanted to focus on her and give my very best. So I needed to be fit, healthy and happy as I can be. So I have decided that I need some break from my phone.
Ok kalau meluah perasaan tentang ni, bad feeling the good feeling memang akan panjang. So im going to keep it short and write another post tentang perasaan tu :D
So.....what I really hope that I can do during this Phone Break is
1. Improve my ibadah, perhangat my hafazan
2.I wanted to read a lot (books on parenting, business, novels)
3. kalau ada peluang, I wanted to join seminar on business
4. Write
5. Menjahit ( at least dapat siapkan baju hanan dan baju abah)
7. Transfer segala gambar dalam fon, siapakn my photobook, print pictures dari gambar kahwin sampai sekarang
8. Do some maths
9. a well plan and fun activity with Hanan
Its actually part of the process to discipline myself. You know how social media and phones can really make you waste your time and be less productive (walaupon it started with nak promote product). so this is a must walaupon it means that I will be losing a lot of customers, dicampak ke group cengkerik sebab tak ada sale. insyaAllah hoping to come back dengan lebih sihat, cergas dan berdisipin. Moga Allah bantu.
ok so till then, insyaAllah
May Allah Bless~
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